Today is Friday once again, and once again, I am doing the same thing as I was doing last Friday!
About what? Every dam thing. My mind is not wired to only think about one thing at a time. I find it hard just to focus, and sometimes it’s just as hard interpreting stuff.
My brain and mind are always seeking new information on whatever topics that it finds attractive. It doesn’t matter; it can be a person, a place, or thing.
As long as there is information that my brain can decipher, decode, and make sense of it. Now sometime, my brain works a little slow; I become confused, get depressed when my mind comes up with a topic that my brain says” hold up, wait a minute” what’s this I don’t understand. Give me time to analyze this before moving on Felicia.
My mind is not allowed to wonder if I am behind the wheel of a car. No, bye Felicia, the brain must focus on the other vehicles with menacing drivers being guided by their wondering mines. If not, it would be hazardous. Therefore, my mind and brain work effortlessly in conjunction to keep every aspect of us where it should be, focused on the road.
Bye Felicia, I’ll call you when I need you to pick up from where you stopped.
It’s always this way for me. So, am I a lunatic? Hell to the NO!
So what is it gurl...let me see, I have a TBI…for y’all that don’t know what that is…it’s a Traumatic Brain Injury.
So how did you get that? My head came in contact with a concrete floor.
Did it hurt? You try falling down and tell me. Bye Felicia.
It is not always easy, but I have learned how to live life on my terms while dealing with all of the life-changing issues; One day at a time.
I‘ve learned that no two people brain injury will be precisely the same.
- That TBI range by degree from mild-severe and both are very disabling in its own way.
- TBI is caused by trauma to the head, or from having a stroke .
- Sometimes finding exactly where the injury is located in the brain is not found. As in my case, I have the symptoms of TBI; Problems are focusing, speaking, head feeling like bolts of electricity going thru my brain. The location has never been found on any of the MRIs. I’ve had more than one.
- In the beginning, I was very depressed, easily aggravated, and only wanted to stay within what I considered my safety zones…my home and my bedroom.
- The head injury happened in 2008. It’s now 2019, and I am older, and in control of this situation. It’s not going away, and it’s better for me to control it than have it controlling ME.
- I have to keep my brain stimulated by any means possible. This is as long as I don’t become stressed.
- Stress is another agonizing badass situation to deal with all by itself.
My empowering thought….use it, before you lose it; a brain is a terrible thing to waste.!